I was mentally prepared to have sex. But I never thought I would
regret it. All my friends look at me as someone who is strong, who
takes the right decisions in life and would never screw up. I never
told anyone I regretted losing my virginity. I was 19 when it
happened. I had never been interested in boys and had been a tom-boy
throughout my life. Although I did have a few crushes here and there,
I had never had a real relationship.
I moved to another country to finish my college education. I was
living with friends and having the best time of my life. I met HIM
through a friend when we were all out partying one night. I started
talking to him and realised we had a lot in common. We moved away from
my friends and started talking when he started kissing me. I was a bit
drunk by then and did nothing to stop him. We kissed for a while till
my friends, who had panicked that they couldn't find me anywhere,
called. I left with my friends that day and didn't even say goodbye to
him. I was too ashamed I had let a complete stranger kiss me. But when
I went home I realsied I actually liked him.
We met again the next night. I said sorry for leaving without telling
him. Soon we started talking and eventually kissing. Again, I left
without telling him. This time I never met him again. We kept in touch
through e-mails and talked online quite often. Then he started calling
me and we used to speak everyday. I quite enjoyed talking to him and
thought this was actually leading somewhere. He never told me he liked
me or that he wanted this to go any further. But I was slowly
believing we had something going on.
It was my friend's birthday and all our friends had come down for a
big party weekend. He had come too, but I didn't know he was coming
and it was a big surprise for me. We went to my room and made out for
sometime. After we came back from the party, I was mentally prepared
to go all the way with him. We went back to my room and starting
making out. Soon the clothes came off and before I knew it he started
fingering me. I didn't even tell him I was a virgin!
But he realised soon and asked me a couple of times if I wanted to go
further. I said yes assertively because it had been running in my head
and I wanted to get over with it that night. I also thought it was
very sweet of him to surprise me by coming all this way to meet me. It
did hurt quite a bit and I bled for some hours. He was gone the next
day. I didn't realise the consequences of what I had done until the
next day.
Once he left, He didn't contact me anymore, never talked online. We
spoke a couple of times and he behaved very strange. I was hurt and
didn't understand his behaviour. We stopped talking altogether and I
felt ashamed and disgusted with myself. I felt used and was so angry
that a guy had succeeded in fooling me and misusing my trust.
I am now in a serious relationship with someone. He loves me a lot and
we did have sex a few times. But it felt so different this time and I
felt so loved! I do regret losing my virginity to someone I barely
knew and wish I had waited. I know I will have to live with this
regret forever. A piece of advice: don't do something under pressure
or without your full consent. It pays to wait and lose your virginity
to someone who loves and cares for you. I would know!!!
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